Meditation Insights

My normal morning meditation didn’t start with its normal easy flow. I couldn’t quieten my mind from its inner battles and in desperation I asked for higher guidance. In a very short space of time I found my bliss which this time, came with lots of insightful and revealing information. So much so, that I was concerned that I wasn’t going hold it clearly enough to share. I found that everything that I have been receiving recently, magically fit into place.

Recently, I have this beautifully serene presence joining me during my meditations. She stands her ground of perfection without any wavering and it is not as if she’s trying to control, soothe, appease, change or console. She does absolutely nothing at all but simply and warmly, radiates her peace. A calm and accepting knowing with total unconditional love, no question, no judgement, just simple overwhelming acceptance. The exchange is automatically calming, that I can see there is no purpose in any struggle or any inner judgement. Her kindness alludes that the only way out is to simply, ‘Let Go’! And it is with this ‘Letting Go’, that I realise how unimportant emotion, reaction or judgement is. It is this inner calm that releases me from my battling and questioning mind, back into my quiet, blissful, meditative state, that is so re-energising, replenishing and revitalising. I feel positive once again as my judgement, my neediness and my insecurity, magically lifts from me.

It is then that I realised I was being asked to recognise that I AM this perfection and to see that I need to embody her as my everyday material essence. To live from Her core, from Her acceptance, from Her sense of absolute perfection. With a knowing that this foundation of perfection, is what it is all about.

What a realisation that such a beautiful manifestation that was joining me through each of my meditations, was actually a representation of me! That beautiful glowing face that I have been seeing time and time again was actually me! I am this perfection. I am this glowing, free, enlightened, radiating being! Like her I too was impervious to all that is material, but most importantly, my reactive and controlling emotions.

What a realisation on how to BE. That IS the Empowering Truth! Not this fear-based control game of insecurity and anxiety we have chosen to live. How did we ever allow ourselves to veer so far off track? How could we ever have let go of such an empowering, self-assuring, solid foundation that not only supports us towards our own self-mastery but invites absolutely everyone and everything, to follow us on that same journey? Where did it all go so wrong?

That’s when I recalled my recent meditation insights. Firstly ….

“The key to self-mastery, is through the elimination of self judgement”

We must first realise our perfection and live from a sense of personal honour, if we are ever going to allow ourselves to BE the perfection that we are. And the only way to do this, is to stop our constant annihilation through self judgement that our conditioned world restrains us within. How is any level of self honour possible, if we are not even allowed to see our own beauty, which is innate, ever-present and our True Essence? Again, where and how did we fall so far off the track of Truth!

So where do we stand? We sit, if we allow ourselves to realise this, teetering on the fence between our Truth and our conditioned lies. It doesn’t take long for the poison of conditioning to penetrate our innocent, pure knowing, taking over our radiating, joyous, perfect youth into this fear driven world of control and judgement. From pure positivity of acceptance, to the fear of non-acceptance. That unique, innocent perfection of our youthful soul is annihilated! Why do we ever choose to do this to ourselves? The possibility of the magical dream in every child’s reality, very soon is eroded into the nightmare of insecurity where we are unquestioningly and unconsciously, all led to. But do we have to let this happen?

That’s when my second meditation insight pops into mind….

“Turn inside and look to your Dream,

... for your Dream is Life manifest, So....

... Choose to make it perfect”…

Our Life, a simple Dream? Can anyone ever believe that? Even more importantly, can we even believe that we have any control over our life? How many ever could hold the concept that we actually ARE the creators of our reality? We have SO accepted that we are disempowered, that such a perception of personal control is simply laughable. That’s when I reflected back into that glowing presence and reflected on her quiet affirming inner power that could never be wrong, that could never be swayed by question. I stopped and considered her for a moment. I did have that inner strength, that conviction of knowing, it was in my instinct and intuition. A personal language that defied any level of questioning. I simply know that personal language is right. No one can tell me I’m wrong! In those situations, my instinct and intuition just know it’s right. There is no need to convince anyone. I comfortably stand on my own.

These are the times that I think we get a glimpse that our ‘normal way of being’ has just got it wrong, as this instinctual, personal language does not follow any logical flow, in fact it totally contradicts it. So, the question we need to ask ourselves is, which is our real language? The accepted one of our world or our own unique, internal one? Which do we call real and which do we call the dream and it this point, the second insight finally makes sense after all! Our inner, intuitive language cannot lie. It comes from an untarnished perspective as it only speaks to us of OUR Truth, where the outside world has absolutely no relevance at all. It speaks to us and us alone. What we then do with what it tells us, is then totally up to us and that is only, if and when, we choose to listen to it. This is our Dream ….. this is our chosen Life!!